Fat to Fit Chick’s 6-Month Gastric Sleeve Surgiversary On 10/20/17 I was officially 6 months post op. What the what! I can’t believe it’s already been 6 months. SIX MONTHS. Time flies. I am no longer a surgery newbie but an experienced vet. I have […]
Hey everyone! This video is so long overdue, I’m sorry it literally took me three months post vsg to post this. I really do want to do more YouTube videos, and now seeing how…large I looked in my first one I feel that I have […]
An Afternoon of Yoga at Suzie’s Farm
I had the pleasure of enjoying a wonderful day at a local farm in San Diego. My friends Kristan and Matt, and I got to spend our morning practicing yoga in a lovely shaded area on Suzie’s Farm in Chula Vista. It was hosted by a local meetup group, called Women, Wine, and Yoga and nearly 100 people showed up. It was such a cute and invite place to be able to practice yoga. Everyone had a very warm and welcoming energy and the vibe on the farm was so quaint and cozy; there were even dogs roaming around while we practiced our yoga, accompanied with a nice cooling breeze and live meditative music. I’ve been only practicing yoga at my
local studio, Yoga Six, which has been so amazing, so I was a little “nervous” doing yoga else where, because the sessions can be so different depending on where you go. However, minus an excessive amount of “ohm-ing” it was absolutely perfect, and it was so nice to be able to enjoy yoga outdoors for a change.
After yoga, we got the pleasure of being able to stick around and tour the farm. The owner of Suzie’s Farm, Lucia, was an absolute joy to be around. Her passion for the outdoors and her farm was absolutely infectious. She just had such a warm energy, I just wanted to give her a giant hug, plus she looked adorable in her little butterfly shawl. Lucia even allowed us to harvest her fruit and vegetables as we toured the farm. She taught us so much about growing, and how her farm works. We were able to pick some strawberries, and they were the most incredible ones I have ever tasted. Fresh from the earth, picked right from the stem, filling my taste buds with the sweetest tasting fruit.
We also got to pick a variety of delicious peppers, ranging from orange and red bell peppers, to some spicy ones including Hungarian black peppers, which honestly I’ve never heard of. I hear they make for a great salsa, and can’t wait to cook with them. Don’t worry, there will be a recipe of sorts up soon enough!
My favorite part of the day, hands down was getting to visit the sunflower fields. Sunflowers are my absolute favorite! Lucia was gracious enough to allow us to pick as many flowers as we wanted. I could have seriously picked the entire field of flowers and that wouldn’t have been enough. I’ve never been to a farm, but this is something I’d love to do again. What made our trip very special, is that this was unfortunately the last day that we would be able to visit Suzie’s farm as it now closed for business. However, it was very fun, and honestly a great form of exercise too! Who knew bending over and picking produce was so hard?
The most wonderful thing about losing weight, going from over 320 pounds to 252 is that I’m starting to feel like myself again. By any means am I content at my current weight? Absolutely not. But, I feel physically lighter as well as spiritually free. I feel more comfortable, I don’t feel like hiding nearly as
Surgery has given me the strength to keep going even though at this point I would usually get discouraged by the fact that despite losing 70 pounds, I still need to lose at least another 100 lbs. It sounds so counter productive (it is), but sometimes that’s how the mind works. And how I’ve ended up always self sabotaging myself in the past, despite prior success. Now, I feel so confident that I’m going to reach my goals, and I can hardly wait. I know I say that all the time, especially on my Instagram, but it’s so true.
My life has been on hold for many, many years; for my entire adult life. Now I can be free and really learn what it’s like to LIVE. I don’t feel like I stick out like a sore thumb nearly as much anymore. I don’t automatically feel like I’m the fattest person in the room (even if I may be), I just feel any other person. Is this what it’s like for “normal” people? I don’t think a lot of people understand the constant thought process that goes through someone’s head who is severely overweight. It’s constant mind games, self-doubt, lack of confidence– you name it. These thoughts can plague us all the time, especially if we’re in any type of public setting. But not for much longer. Finally. After thinking I was doomed to have this body and these burdens forever, I finally feel the (metaphorical) weight lifted off my shoulders. And it feels great.
Anyways, I think I’m going to start sharing more blog posts like this. I love posting recipes, but I think my new eating habits only covers half of my WLS journey, and I want to document every step of the way, since this is my weight loss surgery blog, afterall.
Mixing it Up a Bit: Whole 30 Challenge It’s been just over two months post op and I am very happy with my weight loss results. I have lost about 53 lbs post op, and about 67 lbs over all! I am absolutely ecstatic with […]
Post WLS Life: 5 Week Update First of all I would like to preface this with an apology that I really haven’t done a single update post op. I have more updates on my instagram, but I think I’m over due for a formal blog […]
It’s really happening. After this long journey, I sit here in my bed, getting ready to take a shower; I can’t believe this moment is finally happening. You would think I would be flooded with emotions and excitement, but in a sense, I’m almost numb. I’m not going to lie, some of it is because I have thoughts running through the back of my mind that just keep reminding me “why?”. “Why did you let things get so out of hand that you have to have a surgical intervention? Why couldn’t you just get a hold of this while you still had a chance?”.
This journey has already been so emotional, an awakening of sorts. I have reflected on past experiences in my life to better understand why I got here in the first place. Why did I let myself gain an extra 150 lbs? Why did I stop caring? Will I ever let myself get to this point again? Am I going to fail this surgery? What makes this any different than all my other failed attempts.
Even though it sounds like I’m riddled with disappointment in, I’m not. I could be, but what’s the use in that? I’m just so thankful for the oppprtunity to get to start over. I really try to live with the mentality that I don’t have many regrets in life because all you can really do from the past is learn, but if I had one regret, it would be how I let myself go deep into this state of morbid obesity.
Honestly, I have not been obese in my adult life. Being so vastly overweight has been a huge part of my identity: It’s helped me become invisible. I have missed out on so many opportunities in my life because of my weight. I didn’t want to go out because of my size, as if staying home inside (and eating) was a better alternative.
Yesterday, I had to do a 24-hour fast, and I’m not going to lie, it was hard for me. I have never done anything like that before, I have never been 24-hours without food. It was almost emotional, I kept thinking how I will not be able to indulge anymore, how my lifestyle is actually really going to change. I can’t just casually give into my impulses anymore, it’s time to grow up and take care of myself.
But you know what? I’m ready.
I truly am ready to embark on this next journey of my life. The only thing that can stop me now is myself, and while this is by no means going to be a quick fix, I’m going to have an incredible tool in my body to aid me along the way. I can finally define myself through my personality, not my weight. I can finally live life how I want to, and not have to worry about how uncomfortable I’m going to feel going out at such a large size. I can soon do the physical activities I once loved.
I’m finally going to start living life, and not this shell of a life I’ve been living. I’m finally ready to give up my identity as the fat chick, and I’m ready to live my life to the fullest. I’m ready to have a healthy mind and body.